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It never gets easier, my love.
I too had waited to see, with bated breath, if they would return. I had become quite fond of them myself.
[ He can only do so much for her over text, though, comfort comes across much better in person.]
My bed feels rather lonely tonight.
I too had waited to see, with bated breath, if they would return. I had become quite fond of them myself.
[ He can only do so much for her over text, though, comfort comes across much better in person.]
My bed feels rather lonely tonight.
Edited 2020-08-02 19:30 (UTC)
I'll be there soon.
Don't disappear until I get there, love.
[ Loaded words, addressing and not addressing what he said. It still hurts to miss them, after all. And she'll just swing by the balcony before dropping right in. She dipped into her home to clean up and not... look as sad as she did, so she'll just be crawling into Jakurai's home as quietly as she usually does.
Don't be too surprised at the catte pressed against his back, wherever he is. ]
I'm home. Sorry for making you wait...
Don't disappear until I get there, love.
[ Loaded words, addressing and not addressing what he said. It still hurts to miss them, after all. And she'll just swing by the balcony before dropping right in. She dipped into her home to clean up and not... look as sad as she did, so she'll just be crawling into Jakurai's home as quietly as she usually does.
Don't be too surprised at the catte pressed against his back, wherever he is. ]
I'm home. Sorry for making you wait...
[There are more weight in those words than either of them want to admit. In theory, he could disappear in a breath. But. He's not going to lay here and expect it.
He's very quick to turn over once she's in bed. He's usually fine with spooning, but tonight he'd like to face her.]
Don't apologize.
He's very quick to turn over once she's in bed. He's usually fine with spooning, but tonight he'd like to face her.]
Don't apologize.
[ She's the big spoon, totally! But she's glad to see his face, a soft purr emanating through her before she bumps her forehead against his.
A tired sigh escapes her as she strokes his long hair back. ]
... more friends will leave, you know. It never gets any easier. But I've been feeling tense since it's been happening...
[ She knows Jakurai has no control over it, but still... ]
Were you worried?
A tired sigh escapes her as she strokes his long hair back. ]
... more friends will leave, you know. It never gets any easier. But I've been feeling tense since it's been happening...
[ She knows Jakurai has no control over it, but still... ]
Were you worried?
[He bumps noses with her, only scooting up to kiss her forehead and then settle back down immediately. There are not many words that would really make this better right now.]
Of course I was worried.
[He brings up a large, warm hand to rub the spot between her shoulders. She's probably not relaxed at all. So the goal is to get her shoulders out of her ears.]
You cared for them greatly, love. It is no wonder you are tense.
Of course I was worried.
[He brings up a large, warm hand to rub the spot between her shoulders. She's probably not relaxed at all. So the goal is to get her shoulders out of her ears.]
You cared for them greatly, love. It is no wonder you are tense.
[ Oh that feels good... Jakurai's hands always feel so warm and good on her, and she does definitely feel wound up when he touches her. Thankfully, his hands don't go where she will surely tense up, so she doesn't quite mind where they are now.
There's a small purr that rolls off her tongue, and she moves her arms around the back of his neck and pushes her face close into his shoulder. It's not at all conducive for a massage but she just wants to bury herself in Jakurai's scent. ]
I was being selfish... but at least they're both together, wherever they've gone. Haurchefant, on the other hand...
[ Will he face the same fate? She feels her heart ache. ]
In the events in my own world, he's... no longer alive. He's a fallen hero of the Dragonsong War. Maybe he'll return to a world where that doesn't happen to him.
[ She isn't too hopeful, especially since most of the Warrior of Light stories have lined up. They've almost all lost their Haurchefant and Ysayle... ]
... Aymeric has been the same every time I've known him. Perhaps that's why it hurts to lose him— he always accepts me when I meet him in these worlds. Yet I know once I go back, that'll never happen. We won't even think about knowing each other. He's the Lord Commander of Ishgard, not an adventurer...
[ If he was an adventurer, she could at least befriend him. But this one isn't even the Aymeric from her world... she won't even see Qih'sae again. Sighing, she lifts her head a bit to nuzzle the side of Jakurai's neck. ]
I don't regret the feelings I have for you, or them, even if we risk the chance of vanishing. I'd rather have these feelings than not. But, Jakurai...
[ She pulls her head back to look at him, her eyes clearly seeing him in the dark of the room— ]
If I end up going home before you— if I don't immediately remember you when I return... would you still want to know me? I don't want to hurt you, even like that.
There's a small purr that rolls off her tongue, and she moves her arms around the back of his neck and pushes her face close into his shoulder. It's not at all conducive for a massage but she just wants to bury herself in Jakurai's scent. ]
I was being selfish... but at least they're both together, wherever they've gone. Haurchefant, on the other hand...
[ Will he face the same fate? She feels her heart ache. ]
In the events in my own world, he's... no longer alive. He's a fallen hero of the Dragonsong War. Maybe he'll return to a world where that doesn't happen to him.
[ She isn't too hopeful, especially since most of the Warrior of Light stories have lined up. They've almost all lost their Haurchefant and Ysayle... ]
... Aymeric has been the same every time I've known him. Perhaps that's why it hurts to lose him— he always accepts me when I meet him in these worlds. Yet I know once I go back, that'll never happen. We won't even think about knowing each other. He's the Lord Commander of Ishgard, not an adventurer...
[ If he was an adventurer, she could at least befriend him. But this one isn't even the Aymeric from her world... she won't even see Qih'sae again. Sighing, she lifts her head a bit to nuzzle the side of Jakurai's neck. ]
I don't regret the feelings I have for you, or them, even if we risk the chance of vanishing. I'd rather have these feelings than not. But, Jakurai...
[ She pulls her head back to look at him, her eyes clearly seeing him in the dark of the room— ]
If I end up going home before you— if I don't immediately remember you when I return... would you still want to know me? I don't want to hurt you, even like that.
Edited 2020-08-03 05:37 (UTC)
[He hadn't known Haurchefant but for a very short time, but to hear his fate. It gives Jakurai a grim, sad expression. He's a good person, and of course Jakurai thinks he certainly doesn't deserve that sort of fate.]
By the gods, and everything good...I pray that some sort of reprieve finds him.
[On Aymeric though...]
I know I am not familiar with how things in your worlds work, but there is certainly no way you could ever hope to cross paths with him back home? A chance meeting in Ishgard? Surely...
[He'd like to get her hopes up, but he too has to be realistic.
Her next question nearly takes him aback. He scoots enough so that he can cup her cheeks. How silly of a question of her to ask.]
I would never turn you away, if that is what you are asking. Truthfully, I would even fall for you all over again. Instead of hurting me, it affords me another opportunity to love you. It is as simple as that.
By the gods, and everything good...I pray that some sort of reprieve finds him.
[On Aymeric though...]
I know I am not familiar with how things in your worlds work, but there is certainly no way you could ever hope to cross paths with him back home? A chance meeting in Ishgard? Surely...
[He'd like to get her hopes up, but he too has to be realistic.
Her next question nearly takes him aback. He scoots enough so that he can cup her cheeks. How silly of a question of her to ask.]
I would never turn you away, if that is what you are asking. Truthfully, I would even fall for you all over again. Instead of hurting me, it affords me another opportunity to love you. It is as simple as that.
[ That's surprising enough that she doesn't address the matter of seeing Aymeric again just yet— as much as she'd like the chance, the fact remains that when she goes home he'll be too distant of an entity for her to ever even think of meeting. She's not anyone important enough and definitely doesn't have any business in Ishgard beyond traveling there to help the Firmament with medication as needed.
Who knows, though.
What Jakurai says makes her sit up too, eyes widening as she urges him to as well, moving her hands over his. ]
You would...?
[ No one's ever told her that they'd make an effort to find her again. Everyone leaves, everyone moves on and forgets. There are faces she's seen again that she hasn't ever reconnected with, but this...
She can feel her eyes burning again and she quickly lowers her head, ears drooping— ]
Ah, godsdamn... got something in my eye. Hair... long hair...
[ Her heart is pounding though. She knows Jakurai enough to know he'd never say anything like that thoughtlessly. ]
I'd do the same for you, but— if you forgot me... I couldn't ever stand the thought of you rejecting me. Not that I'd stop from trying— [ Is her voice shaking? ] B-but this is silly talk, it's not like it has happened, hah...
Who knows, though.
What Jakurai says makes her sit up too, eyes widening as she urges him to as well, moving her hands over his. ]
You would...?
[ No one's ever told her that they'd make an effort to find her again. Everyone leaves, everyone moves on and forgets. There are faces she's seen again that she hasn't ever reconnected with, but this...
She can feel her eyes burning again and she quickly lowers her head, ears drooping— ]
Ah, godsdamn... got something in my eye. Hair... long hair...
[ Her heart is pounding though. She knows Jakurai enough to know he'd never say anything like that thoughtlessly. ]
I'd do the same for you, but— if you forgot me... I couldn't ever stand the thought of you rejecting me. Not that I'd stop from trying— [ Is her voice shaking? ] B-but this is silly talk, it's not like it has happened, hah...
Edited (Autocorrect!!) 2020-08-04 07:17 (UTC)
[Even Jakurai himself was initially surprised at himself. To have his heart grabbed so lovingly and thoroughly by this young, strong, independent woman. The last time his heart was this open, he was hurt, so certainly...it took a while to ever think about opening up again. But Megumi? Megumi was worth every moment of it.
For him to say this is for him to be in love.]
I would be fearful that you wouldn't accept me again, but it would never stop me from loving you.
[Those words always felt unfamiliar on his tongue.]
It would be foolish of me to make promises, but you must realize I would do anything for you, right? With the time that we are granted, no matter what, you call and I will come.
For him to say this is for him to be in love.]
I would be fearful that you wouldn't accept me again, but it would never stop me from loving you.
[Those words always felt unfamiliar on his tongue.]
It would be foolish of me to make promises, but you must realize I would do anything for you, right? With the time that we are granted, no matter what, you call and I will come.
[ How does he manage to say things so clearly and honestly when she still hesitated admitting it? She doesn't think too hard on the partners she has and cares for here— they all have folks they'd absolutely be more committed to if she wasn't here, after all. She accepts that.
Jakurai, too— has been making things work with Ramuda, and whenever he leaves he'll at least have whatever he does with him. It's why she knows he'll be alright when he returns—
When he goes to a world without her.
When did she start wanting to take him to hers, and selfishly make him adapt to a world not his own?
She feels her heart ache tightly at his words, wanting to believe them so badly— but she knows if she does, that will be it. And yet—
And yet, her heart wants to accept this. Accept him, and his words. Her hands move to cup his face in her hands even as her head stays lowered, before she meets his gaze at last when she lifts it. ]
You too. I don't want to think of parting with you right now. Or ever as long as we're here. I may have feelings of other sorts for others— but the fact that you still accepted me...
[ Even she would have not been as accepting before, and now— she moves in to press their mouths together, kissing him heatedly before he can reply, and her hands thread into his hair. ]
I'm scared of how much I love you, but I don't want this to stop if it doesn't have to. How selfish is that?
Jakurai, too— has been making things work with Ramuda, and whenever he leaves he'll at least have whatever he does with him. It's why she knows he'll be alright when he returns—
When he goes to a world without her.
When did she start wanting to take him to hers, and selfishly make him adapt to a world not his own?
She feels her heart ache tightly at his words, wanting to believe them so badly— but she knows if she does, that will be it. And yet—
And yet, her heart wants to accept this. Accept him, and his words. Her hands move to cup his face in her hands even as her head stays lowered, before she meets his gaze at last when she lifts it. ]
You too. I don't want to think of parting with you right now. Or ever as long as we're here. I may have feelings of other sorts for others— but the fact that you still accepted me...
[ Even she would have not been as accepting before, and now— she moves in to press their mouths together, kissing him heatedly before he can reply, and her hands thread into his hair. ]
I'm scared of how much I love you, but I don't want this to stop if it doesn't have to. How selfish is that?
[Because it took him this long to really say it out loud as confidently as he just did.
While his relationship with Ramuda is also an important one, his relationship with Megumi is important for much different reasons. He loves the both of them, but he loves them for different reasons.
He leans his cheek into her touch, grounding himself to her.]
Selfishness to a degree is healthy. One must be selfish to their own needs every once in a while.
[He pauses but a moment...]
I want to diminish the fear that you hold.
While his relationship with Ramuda is also an important one, his relationship with Megumi is important for much different reasons. He loves the both of them, but he loves them for different reasons.
He leans his cheek into her touch, grounding himself to her.]
Selfishness to a degree is healthy. One must be selfish to their own needs every once in a while.
[He pauses but a moment...]
I want to diminish the fear that you hold.
[ She lifts her gaze to his, she can't help but feel a wave of emotion. There are too many thoughts, including and not limited to the fact that she's found such a wonderful man that loves her fully— and who she's not afraid of loving back. Even if she knows one day they'll go to their own worlds, would it be so wrong to enjoy their happiness here?
She lets her fingers brush across his cheek, meeting his crystal-like eyes and falling silent for a bit. She looks thoughtful, then nods... ]
I want you to, too. But I already believe what you say.
[ She knows better than to question where she stands. With a sigh, she leans in and pulls Jakurai's face close to hers, laying a soft kiss on his mouth. ]
Sometimes, you're too perfect to be true, you know that? Maybe you should be bad so I can punish you some more.
[ It's her way of saying she trusts him no matter what. ]
She lets her fingers brush across his cheek, meeting his crystal-like eyes and falling silent for a bit. She looks thoughtful, then nods... ]
I want you to, too. But I already believe what you say.
[ She knows better than to question where she stands. With a sigh, she leans in and pulls Jakurai's face close to hers, laying a soft kiss on his mouth. ]
Sometimes, you're too perfect to be true, you know that? Maybe you should be bad so I can punish you some more.
[ It's her way of saying she trusts him no matter what. ]
[It took both of them some time to realize that they were falling hard and fast for one another, but Jakurai would never change his experience of falling in love with Megumi for the world.
He knows that they only have limited time— it could be days, months, years, or even minutes. But that doesn’t stop Jakurai from giving her everything that he has to offer her.]
I should be bad, should I? How would you suggest that I be bad? We can’t have me looking too pristine, now can we?
[He tilts his just a little bit to return her kisses, just as warm and full as before.]
He knows that they only have limited time— it could be days, months, years, or even minutes. But that doesn’t stop Jakurai from giving her everything that he has to offer her.]
I should be bad, should I? How would you suggest that I be bad? We can’t have me looking too pristine, now can we?
[He tilts his just a little bit to return her kisses, just as warm and full as before.]
You can always not wear your underwear at work and let me find out with my wandering hands.
[ A totally serious suggestion, he knows! She smiles playfully, giving his nose a little boop with her own. ]
Or you could ask me to suck you off in your car. But then we'll have to wash the seats again...
[ Someone has learnt the joys of fucking in the car... ]
[ A totally serious suggestion, he knows! She smiles playfully, giving his nose a little boop with her own. ]
Or you could ask me to suck you off in your car. But then we'll have to wash the seats again...
[ Someone has learnt the joys of fucking in the car... ]
"Perhaps"? That was the most exciting day I'd had!
[ She giggles, her ears wiggling playfully as she wraps her arms around Jakurai's waist now and pushes her face into the side of his neck. ]
Not that every sun with you isn't a blessing.
[ She sighs and gives his skin a playful nip, purring as she wraps her tail around him. ]
Besides, where I come from, we just call it bonding. That's the way of Menphina, after all. Give love and pleasure where you can, bring joy.
[ It doesn't have to be sexually but that's the way she has fun with it. ]
And I'm a good devotee, aren't I?
[ She giggles, her ears wiggling playfully as she wraps her arms around Jakurai's waist now and pushes her face into the side of his neck. ]
Not that every sun with you isn't a blessing.
[ She sighs and gives his skin a playful nip, purring as she wraps her tail around him. ]
Besides, where I come from, we just call it bonding. That's the way of Menphina, after all. Give love and pleasure where you can, bring joy.
[ It doesn't have to be sexually but that's the way she has fun with it. ]
And I'm a good devotee, aren't I?
Edited 2020-08-25 06:41 (UTC)
And you made me come to work while I was exhibiting dragon features, how cruel of you.
[ He nibbles along her jaw before pecking her lips again.]
You are a wonderful devotee, and hopefully I can learn a thing or two from you.
[Jakurai is playing with her tail, petting the soft fur, and barely missing the base of it. ]
[ He nibbles along her jaw before pecking her lips again.]
You are a wonderful devotee, and hopefully I can learn a thing or two from you.
[Jakurai is playing with her tail, petting the soft fur, and barely missing the base of it. ]
I can't help it if you look just as beautiful as one, you know.
[ Ah- her ears lift and flick as she purrs, though the tease along her tail makes her make small, happy sounds as she slides up closer. ]
As much as I like you trying to lay claim to me... I do enjoy watching you writhe beneath me too. You really do underestimate how lovely you look, you know.
[ She pulls back, her eyes faintly catching the light in the darkness- she's a keeper of the moon after all. Her eyes do better in the darkness as well. ]
... though if you could see where I grew up. You'd probably never want to leave. It's the most beautiful land you'll ever see.
[ Ah- her ears lift and flick as she purrs, though the tease along her tail makes her make small, happy sounds as she slides up closer. ]
As much as I like you trying to lay claim to me... I do enjoy watching you writhe beneath me too. You really do underestimate how lovely you look, you know.
[ She pulls back, her eyes faintly catching the light in the darkness- she's a keeper of the moon after all. Her eyes do better in the darkness as well. ]
... though if you could see where I grew up. You'd probably never want to leave. It's the most beautiful land you'll ever see.
You think I look beautiful as a dragon?
[He rubs his hand along the base of her tail now, tilting his head to get a better look at her expressions.]
I cannot deny that it thrills me when you stake your claim on me as you do, and allow me to do the same to you.
[He makes a low humming noise, questioning.]
Tell about where you grew up?
[He rubs his hand along the base of her tail now, tilting his head to get a better look at her expressions.]
I cannot deny that it thrills me when you stake your claim on me as you do, and allow me to do the same to you.
[He makes a low humming noise, questioning.]
Tell about where you grew up?
You do! [ Honest as ever. She stills for a bit, though, enjoying the way his fingers feel on her tail, and perhaps- she squirms a little, enjoying it a bit too much as she crosses her legs too.
She's obviously trying to contain herself, and her breath catches for a moment. ]
It's a vast and beautiful land, with hills and plains as far as they eye can see. Moon-gates rise high over the rivers, and mountains so high that they become part of the clouds and sky, and the night sky is filled with so many stars you can see into the heavens beyond... that's where I grew up... In the lands of Yanxia.
[ She tenses a moment, but doesn't push him away. ]
W...ere you always living in this Shinjuku of yours?
She's obviously trying to contain herself, and her breath catches for a moment. ]
It's a vast and beautiful land, with hills and plains as far as they eye can see. Moon-gates rise high over the rivers, and mountains so high that they become part of the clouds and sky, and the night sky is filled with so many stars you can see into the heavens beyond... that's where I grew up... In the lands of Yanxia.
[ She tenses a moment, but doesn't push him away. ]
W...ere you always living in this Shinjuku of yours?
[It makes his chest swell to hear such an beautiful explanation of her homeland. Of course, Jakurai had only the beauty of modern japan to compare to it.
He hums to himself, thinking. Thinking thinking thinking.]
I was in the military for quite some time after I put down the mantle of being an assassin. That took me several different places around the world. When the wars were ended, and the overthrow of the government happened...I came home. Shinjuku will always be my home.
It is a hustle and bustle of city life, loud cars...even louder people. Entertainment districts as far as the eye can see. Shinjuku is very classy, but the personality of the day and the night are completely different. I suppose that can be said of many of the residents of Shinjuku as well.
He hums to himself, thinking. Thinking thinking thinking.]
I was in the military for quite some time after I put down the mantle of being an assassin. That took me several different places around the world. When the wars were ended, and the overthrow of the government happened...I came home. Shinjuku will always be my home.
It is a hustle and bustle of city life, loud cars...even louder people. Entertainment districts as far as the eye can see. Shinjuku is very classy, but the personality of the day and the night are completely different. I suppose that can be said of many of the residents of Shinjuku as well.
Hi hi Sensei~~~!☆
Hope you're having a good day!
Just making sure you're eating and that no one is bothering you!
You know you can tell Doppo or myself if someone is pestering you!
We're here for you always!
Hope you're having a good day!
Just making sure you're eating and that no one is bothering you!
You know you can tell Doppo or myself if someone is pestering you!
We're here for you always!
[Just how hard has he been working lately, anyways? He hasn't really been spending time with Hifumi OR Doppo. He should make it up to them.]
I am comforted with the fact that both of you will always be at my side should things go south.
My apologies for being absent lately, i have picked up a little more work than normal.
I am comforted with the fact that both of you will always be at my side should things go south.
My apologies for being absent lately, i have picked up a little more work than normal.
It's totally okay!
I have more work lately myself, so I get it!
So I'm here to let you know that you're still super duper important even when things get busy!
I'll still always drop everything for you if you ever need anything!
I have more work lately myself, so I get it!
So I'm here to let you know that you're still super duper important even when things get busy!
I'll still always drop everything for you if you ever need anything!
The military...
[ She repeats it under her breath, though thanks to this place, she can actually imagine the world around. Her hand brushes across his cheek, watching his face with an affectionate look before she chuckles. ]
It sounds like it, Doctor who was once an Assassin.
[ She smiles, her gaze softening at the sight of him. ]
I'd like to see it sometime. Maybe we can visit it in one of those Amphoria Rooms...
[ She doesn't want to bring up the thought or idea of him leaving and her following... she knows it's not possible. They may as well focus on what they can do at this point. ]
Why don't we go tomorrow, after work? You look tired right now, Jakurai. And I want a nap.
[ She pushes close so she can tuck her head under his and hold him tight— it is late and even though she doesn't sleep at nights, she wants to sleep here with him. ]
[ She repeats it under her breath, though thanks to this place, she can actually imagine the world around. Her hand brushes across his cheek, watching his face with an affectionate look before she chuckles. ]
It sounds like it, Doctor who was once an Assassin.
[ She smiles, her gaze softening at the sight of him. ]
I'd like to see it sometime. Maybe we can visit it in one of those Amphoria Rooms...
[ She doesn't want to bring up the thought or idea of him leaving and her following... she knows it's not possible. They may as well focus on what they can do at this point. ]
Why don't we go tomorrow, after work? You look tired right now, Jakurai. And I want a nap.
[ She pushes close so she can tuck her head under his and hold him tight— it is late and even though she doesn't sleep at nights, she wants to sleep here with him. ]
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