[ It is just the way this place is— they could wake up one day and not have the friends they'd spent all their time with. Growing with and learning this strange world together, only to have them disappear and losing every memory like it never existed.
She doesn't want to be afraid of it, she wants to live in the moment and acknowledge those bonds as they form. She's not sure when Jakurai became so treasured to her, all that she knows is that somewhere along the way, he did. Their conversations and bonding, watching his expression light up when he enjoyed something or grow serious in thought... and his kindness. His kindness above all may have drawn her in the most.
And she wants to make him happy, without fear.
So when he kisses her forehead, her ears flatten over the sides of her head as she accepts it, feeling a surge of emotion in her chest when he does. He's usually so restrained, that having him do such a thing is precious. In response, she only lowers her head to push her forehead against his chest. ]
You're important. That's all that matters here, love. Having a party just gives me— and everyone who cares for you, a way to show you that in celebration. Not that it'll stop otherwise.
[ She smiles to herself, trying to bite back her emotions and failing. He's really... ]
And if you won't be ashamed of it... then neither will I. I want to call you my partner... A boyfriend? Not just a lover or colleague...
[ A boyfriend sounds a bit too simple for what she feels... so maybe that works, or perhaps. Why do they need labels... she laughs a bit quietly as she shakes her head. ]
Just be honest about... everything. Good or bad. That's all I ask. I want to share in your joys, and work through any upsets I can help with.
[ She doesn't demand or ask for more at any time. Others will be able to help him better at times and she'll be happy they have. She pulls back, only to place a hand on his cheek and look him in the eyes. ]
But we have to eat together as much as we can. You're depriving yourself of a lot of deliciousness you know! And the only time I'm demanding anything is when you overwork yourself.
[ Because food is a form of love, after all. She pretend-glares, before pulling his head down and bumping their foreheads together. ]
Though I think I'm falling for that as well, about you. Don't take advantage of it or I'll really pout!
[Aah, Jakurai really does find himself to be quite a lucky man. To have someone at his side as receptive and accepting as Megumi is. She's never judged him, questioned him, so much as given him a sour face that was unwarranted. He doesn't think anything in this entire world could make him embarrassed or ashamed to say that she was his partner.]
I do appreciate the sentiment. Normally I am just happy to be given a warm regard on my birthday. The nurses at home always made sure to do such things. I am certain if allowed it, Doppo-kun and Hifumi-kun would celebrate with me as well. But I have not allowed that idea to form in either of their heads. They have lives and things to do.
[Jakurai easily follows her pulls, resting his forehead against hers.]
I will call us whatever you want to call us. Most importantly, you are my partner. That is a term I like to think fits us very well.
[He does laugh at her quip about his eating though.]
You will not be the first nor last person to tell me I look like I do not eat a proper amount.
The nurses here will end up doing the same, they adore you. If our prismagram didn't say enough.
[ It's full of "Dr. Jakurai Sightings", sneaked shots of Jakurai just... being himself and offering some good advice. Then again, they post mostly about their handsome men working there, with a sporadic "Dr. Megumi Says..." — not that Megumi discourages it. Have charm, get business, right? And her colleagues— they certainly embody charm.
She smiles in amusement, though his words trouble her... and she leans in and kisses the corner of his mouth, followed by another over his lips herself. ]
Partners, then. Boyfriend when I'm feeling particularly affectionate. And you know— I'm sure your Hifumi and Doppo would happily make time for you. Don't decide what they should be doing for them, aye?
[ It's not fair for him to decide if they should or not. Their love and affection for him is their own! So she smiles and pokes her nose with his, wanting him to feel just as loved by her. ]
We'll start you with a course of cuddles and a main dish of kisses. [ She jokes, though she pauses as her ears flick up. People are cheering in the streets below... she pauses and checks her device for the time, her eyes widening. ]
Hells. It's almost midnight. Were we out here that long?
[ That means the new year is on them... and she sits up properly, extending a hand to him to stand as she urges him to the side of the building rooftop. The celebrations are in full swing, and it's a few minutes to countdown... she smiles a bit. ]
Almost looks like how it is back home, whenever we were in Kugane. Ready to ring in the new year, love?
I have fear that the nurses will begin bringing me home cooked meals if I forget my own lunch one more time. Aah, but this setting...and the setting I am used to are much different. Emergency medicine is never being able to sit down, or sleeping in your call room and getting woken up several times during the night. But this...it is calm and I am able to really focus on each patient.
[He accepts her kisses readily. Happily even.]
I do wish that for Hifumi-kun's sake, that Doppo-kun were here.
[Looking at this own device, he raises a brow. They really had been talking for quite some time.]
Sounds about as harsh as what I'd be doing on the field during the war... but I'd rather not think about that right now.
[ She really doesn't want to think of the conflicts in the past that she aided as a healer in, those rough nights at the Matron's Reach and worse. That, and... those have memories of her husband, who she also doesn't want to think about.
At least Jakurai is someone she does want to think about... and as he talks, she chuckles. ]
Maybe you'll get your wish, soon enough. It would be nice to meet the people you care so much about.
[ As the countdown begins in cheers from below them, Megumi leans in against him, arm around his back as her ears flick down and up again. 5...4... 3... 2...1. The cheering echoes around them, and bursts of coloured fireworks light up the sky, and she turns to look up at Jakurai. ]
Happy New Year. Make a wish.
[ That's all he'll get before she urges his face down to press their mouths together in a kiss, gentle and full of affection- and with the intimacy of her feelings.
( My wish is for you to accept the love you think you don't deserve. ) She thinks, suddenly feeling like her heart is racing with want for this lovely, sweet man- and that want simply embodies the need to see him content and happy.
As long as she's here, maybe... she can try and help him find it.
It would be nice if he could find a bit of it with her, but she isn't selfish. Not much, anyway, and she hopes he'll let her be if she does decide to. For now, as she breaks the kiss briefly, she purrs slightly against him. ]
Let's do our best together, aye? I'll be happy if we can stand side by side.
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She doesn't want to be afraid of it, she wants to live in the moment and acknowledge those bonds as they form. She's not sure when Jakurai became so treasured to her, all that she knows is that somewhere along the way, he did. Their conversations and bonding, watching his expression light up when he enjoyed something or grow serious in thought... and his kindness. His kindness above all may have drawn her in the most.
And she wants to make him happy, without fear.
So when he kisses her forehead, her ears flatten over the sides of her head as she accepts it, feeling a surge of emotion in her chest when he does. He's usually so restrained, that having him do such a thing is precious. In response, she only lowers her head to push her forehead against his chest. ]
You're important. That's all that matters here, love. Having a party just gives me— and everyone who cares for you, a way to show you that in celebration. Not that it'll stop otherwise.
[ She smiles to herself, trying to bite back her emotions and failing. He's really... ]
And if you won't be ashamed of it... then neither will I. I want to call you my partner... A boyfriend? Not just a lover or colleague...
[ A boyfriend sounds a bit too simple for what she feels... so maybe that works, or perhaps. Why do they need labels... she laughs a bit quietly as she shakes her head. ]
Just be honest about... everything. Good or bad. That's all I ask. I want to share in your joys, and work through any upsets I can help with.
[ She doesn't demand or ask for more at any time. Others will be able to help him better at times and she'll be happy they have. She pulls back, only to place a hand on his cheek and look him in the eyes. ]
But we have to eat together as much as we can. You're depriving yourself of a lot of deliciousness you know! And the only time I'm demanding anything is when you overwork yourself.
[ Because food is a form of love, after all. She pretend-glares, before pulling his head down and bumping their foreheads together. ]
Though I think I'm falling for that as well, about you. Don't take advantage of it or I'll really pout!
[ Don't think she won't! ]
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I do appreciate the sentiment. Normally I am just happy to be given a warm regard on my birthday. The nurses at home always made sure to do such things. I am certain if allowed it, Doppo-kun and Hifumi-kun would celebrate with me as well. But I have not allowed that idea to form in either of their heads. They have lives and things to do.
[Jakurai easily follows her pulls, resting his forehead against hers.]
I will call us whatever you want to call us. Most importantly, you are my partner. That is a term I like to think fits us very well.
[He does laugh at her quip about his eating though.]
You will not be the first nor last person to tell me I look like I do not eat a proper amount.
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[ It's full of "Dr. Jakurai Sightings", sneaked shots of Jakurai just... being himself and offering some good advice. Then again, they post mostly about their handsome men working there, with a sporadic "Dr. Megumi Says..." — not that Megumi discourages it. Have charm, get business, right? And her colleagues— they certainly embody charm.
She smiles in amusement, though his words trouble her... and she leans in and kisses the corner of his mouth, followed by another over his lips herself. ]
Partners, then. Boyfriend when I'm feeling particularly affectionate. And you know— I'm sure your Hifumi and Doppo would happily make time for you. Don't decide what they should be doing for them, aye?
[ It's not fair for him to decide if they should or not. Their love and affection for him is their own! So she smiles and pokes her nose with his, wanting him to feel just as loved by her. ]
We'll start you with a course of cuddles and a main dish of kisses. [ She jokes, though she pauses as her ears flick up. People are cheering in the streets below... she pauses and checks her device for the time, her eyes widening. ]
Hells. It's almost midnight. Were we out here that long?
[ That means the new year is on them... and she sits up properly, extending a hand to him to stand as she urges him to the side of the building rooftop. The celebrations are in full swing, and it's a few minutes to countdown... she smiles a bit. ]
Almost looks like how it is back home, whenever we were in Kugane. Ready to ring in the new year, love?
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[He accepts her kisses readily. Happily even.]
I do wish that for Hifumi-kun's sake, that Doppo-kun were here.
[Looking at this own device, he raises a brow. They really had been talking for quite some time.]
I am as ready as I will ever be.
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[ She really doesn't want to think of the conflicts in the past that she aided as a healer in, those rough nights at the Matron's Reach and worse. That, and... those have memories of her husband, who she also doesn't want to think about.
At least Jakurai is someone she does want to think about... and as he talks, she chuckles. ]
Maybe you'll get your wish, soon enough. It would be nice to meet the people you care so much about.
[ As the countdown begins in cheers from below them, Megumi leans in against him, arm around his back as her ears flick down and up again. 5...4... 3... 2...1. The cheering echoes around them, and bursts of coloured fireworks light up the sky, and she turns to look up at Jakurai. ]
Happy New Year. Make a wish.
[ That's all he'll get before she urges his face down to press their mouths together in a kiss, gentle and full of affection- and with the intimacy of her feelings.
( My wish is for you to accept the love you think you don't deserve. ) She thinks, suddenly feeling like her heart is racing with want for this lovely, sweet man- and that want simply embodies the need to see him content and happy.
As long as she's here, maybe... she can try and help him find it.
It would be nice if he could find a bit of it with her, but she isn't selfish. Not much, anyway, and she hopes he'll let her be if she does decide to. For now, as she breaks the kiss briefly, she purrs slightly against him. ]
Let's do our best together, aye? I'll be happy if we can stand side by side.