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[zazen]

Amemura-kun and I are...better than we usually are. We had a long talk in my apartment after I apparently tried to drink myself to death at the christmas party.

So yes, in a sense. I think I do miss what the four of us had two years ago. We were very close.

[There is a fond smile at the mention of Hifumi.]

Hifumi-kun is one of my current members. Doppo-kun isn't here. But the two of them mean a lot to me, as much as The Dirty Dawg did.

[He brings her hand up to kiss it.]

I ama simple and easy to please sort of person, I like to think. So getting to spend time on things I love...like working, or reading a good book, or even just taking a day to do things for myself-- even if that is rare. Those sorts of things are the things that make me the happiest.

[He really is an old man, in some respect.]

It is mind boggling to me that I will be spending my thirty-sixth birthday here.

[menphina]

[ There's the slightest fluster at the kiss, but she listens patiently. Jakurai listens to them all the time— he helps others, he makes them feel better about themselves. And she knows for sure that kindness wouldn't to go unrewarded. Even the assistant nurses that work at the clinic always have a good thing to say about him.

Then again, they're the reason Jyuto, Kogami, Josuke and Jakurai make up most of the business' Prismagram and why they get so many patients... for the smallest things.

She chuckles, thinking of her now ex-husband... she had to drag him out quite like this, and he too was at an age that after all the excitement in his life and work, he'd want to come back to calmer things at home... it's what created their distance and she doesn't want to see a repeat of that with someone else she has feelings for. ]

I'm glad you made up. Though it was funny seeing you get drunk. I'm never going to forget it. You practically sucked off that banana I fed you.

[ She grins cheekily but does lean in to kiss his cheek when she speaks, wiggling her ears at him. ]

Ah, your nameday is coming up— maybe your friends will want to do something with you. I would! You'll have to join in too or I'll pout. I don't look very pretty when I pout you know.

[ And she'll do it just to show him, even if she looks like a puffed up kitty instead! ]

You see? Do you want that? I think not, aye?

[zazen]

[Thankfully for Megumi, Jakurai would never be that much of a shut in. Not enough to put distance between them. He has found himself in a nice spot with Megumi and it is something that he would prefer not to give up. He had enough troubles with keeping any sort of relationship in the past. It was something that he was trying to improve.]

No one told me I did anything embarrassing. Especially not something so lewd, and inappropriate.

[He might not be a stranger to sucking dick, but like, did he have to eat a banana like he was sucking dick in public? Terrible.]

I don't really tend to draw attention to it. Hifumi-kun and perhaps Amemura-kun are the only ones who know the exact date. I thought about maybe...taking the day off?

[IMPROVEMENT?]

Though, your pouting face is rather cute.

[menphina]

I have visual evidence if you'd like to see.

[ She smiles playfully, gesturing to her device which she's carrying like a phone and has set out on the picnic blanket for now. At least she knows Jakurai isn't the kind to try and snatch it from her— and he ought to know by now she wouldn't spread anything like that.

Her ears lift when he talks about taking the day off though— will he really?! Her eyes brighten as she moves her arms around his body instead and squeezes him in a hug, a light laugh escaping her. ]

My face will be even cuter if you take a day off to celebrate your nameday! I could just look it up on your employee sign up sheet but where's the fun in that?

[ She does have a good memory but she actually never bothered reading the forms when they'd talked everything out. It was just a formality! She tucks her head in against his shoulder, fitting herself under his arm as she nuzzles him, soft purrs emanating from her form and vibrating— ]

What sort of sweets do you like, anyroad? We know what you like eating, but if you're going to have some fun, I want to do something for you too! I'm sure so will plenty of others!

[ She looks up with a fond gaze, feeling a bit warmed by the fact that this man has allowed her in, and she wants to cherish that. ]

Ah, I'm so excited already... and we've got to take lots of pictures too. I want to have one of us on my desk as well.

[ Because... well. Maybe she should also try and acknowledge that certain feelings have been realized. She lowers her gaze, her ears drooping a bit as she adds in a quieter voice— ]

...I haven't gotten to do this for a partner in a long time, so... I hope you won't leave anyone out. Just tell me when it's too much. My girls always tell me I get overwhelming when I get excited.

[ It's toned down now but... there are shades of her joy when it does occur and she brings a hand up to stroke back Jakurai's long hair behind his ear. ]

All I want is for you to be open with whatever you need. We're already far from home... I'd rather our relationships here don't end up hurting us either, aye? Especially you— haa, look what you've done. Now I'm being sappy with you!

[ She usually doesn't get so intimate but— isn't it important to be honest especially with someone she cares for the way she does for Jakurai? She just hopes he feels the same as well... ]

[zazen]

Visual evidence of--

[Oh now that is even more embarrassing, now that he knows there is visual evidence of him making an absolute fool of himself. He can't help be look away, and perhaps blush a little at the thought.

And then his attention is back on her, ah, that reaction was a really good one.]

I thought I would take some time to myself that day. Even if the patients are incredibly important as well.

[And he certainly couldn't resist it when she started purring, it's a charm point.]

My birthday is January 9th, very early in the year. I'm not very heavy into sweets, but something small wouldn't be bad. Something like a normal vanilla or chocolate cake? Nothing too fancy. There is nothing stopping us right now from taking a picture for your desk either, Megumi.

And please, don't fret about being overwhelming. You certainly are not. I have become rather fond of what you and I share.

[menphina]

Jakurai...

[ She's definitely been holding back a little with those she's accepted as her "partners" so to speak, perhaps more on her end than theirs. They've all been wonderful, even patient. She knows it's time for her to start giving back.

As she reluctantly peels herself back, she looks him over— this kind, beautiful man who she always feels like she's imposing on, welcoming her like this, and sighs with a smile. ]

Me too. That's why I want to celebrate you.

[ January 9th. She can work that out, and she lowers her head a bit— she never usually shows it or tries to play it off with bravado, but. ]

I'm no good at cooking or baking. Anything more complicated than steaming or boiling and I'll end up destroying it. And I want— I want to give you something to show that I'm serious here, too. I know your other partners may want the same, but this is from me.

[ Mostly because relationships here are so ephemeral that she wants to hold onto the ones that do mean something. Even when they all have many others that share in that. ]

It might be store bought or commissioned, and I won't know if it's as good as what someone would make with love, but I'll still bring you a cake. Those are important, right? So I can't fail there.

[ For someone like her, admitting she's weak at anything she can't improve on, even for something like this, is a big deal. But she gives him a smile as she holds his hands in hers. ]

So let me do at least that. Because I—

[ Her ears flatten to the sides of her head, suddenly feeling like her words are about to suffocate her. ]

...—don't want to pretend my feelings for you are the same feelings of love I have for my other friends. You and Kogami, maybe even Josuke a bit, are...

[ Precious. Valuable. The fact that she's telling him that there are few she feels like this for, and as it stands, they're above the rest for her... is big deal, especially after she's lost her husband to distance. ]

.. more than that to me, Jakurai. Is.. that fine?

[zazen]

[Jakurai has this wish that relationships weren't so short lived here. He also had never really seen himself...practically seeing three different people and all three of them being okay with that. Color him impressed that he even agreed to that. Megumi was certainly very important to him though, and he felt himself very tenderhearted for her in particular. They had cultivated this relationship from the very bottom. An accidental text turned into a working relationship....turned into, well, essentially a relationship.]

You say that with so little confidence.

[Jakurai knows, is aware, and is fine with not being Megumi's only. It's just how it is here, right? The design of this place makes multiple partners a thing.]

It is more than fine, of course. These feelings seem to have been with you in your heart for quite some time. Life is all about discovering what it means to follow your heart, your gut, and you head. If you feel this way for us, for me, then I want to...as your partner, give you the confidence to be able to say it proudly.

[He leans over, giving her a small kiss on her forehead. A rare occurrence for Jakurai to even be the one initiating the affection.]

As for the cake...you don't need to do any of that for me. Simply spending time with those I cherish is all I really need. My birthday has never been anything that important to me.

[menphina]

[ It is just the way this place is— they could wake up one day and not have the friends they'd spent all their time with. Growing with and learning this strange world together, only to have them disappear and losing every memory like it never existed.

She doesn't want to be afraid of it, she wants to live in the moment and acknowledge those bonds as they form. She's not sure when Jakurai became so treasured to her, all that she knows is that somewhere along the way, he did. Their conversations and bonding, watching his expression light up when he enjoyed something or grow serious in thought... and his kindness. His kindness above all may have drawn her in the most.

And she wants to make him happy, without fear.

So when he kisses her forehead, her ears flatten over the sides of her head as she accepts it, feeling a surge of emotion in her chest when he does. He's usually so restrained, that having him do such a thing is precious. In response, she only lowers her head to push her forehead against his chest. ]

You're important. That's all that matters here, love. Having a party just gives me— and everyone who cares for you, a way to show you that in celebration. Not that it'll stop otherwise.

[ She smiles to herself, trying to bite back her emotions and failing. He's really... ]

And if you won't be ashamed of it... then neither will I. I want to call you my partner... A boyfriend? Not just a lover or colleague...

[ A boyfriend sounds a bit too simple for what she feels... so maybe that works, or perhaps. Why do they need labels... she laughs a bit quietly as she shakes her head. ]

Just be honest about... everything. Good or bad. That's all I ask. I want to share in your joys, and work through any upsets I can help with.

[ She doesn't demand or ask for more at any time. Others will be able to help him better at times and she'll be happy they have. She pulls back, only to place a hand on his cheek and look him in the eyes. ]

But we have to eat together as much as we can. You're depriving yourself of a lot of deliciousness you know! And the only time I'm demanding anything is when you overwork yourself.

[ Because food is a form of love, after all. She pretend-glares, before pulling his head down and bumping their foreheads together. ]

Though I think I'm falling for that as well, about you. Don't take advantage of it or I'll really pout!

[ Don't think she won't! ]

[zazen]

[Aah, Jakurai really does find himself to be quite a lucky man. To have someone at his side as receptive and accepting as Megumi is. She's never judged him, questioned him, so much as given him a sour face that was unwarranted. He doesn't think anything in this entire world could make him embarrassed or ashamed to say that she was his partner.]

I do appreciate the sentiment. Normally I am just happy to be given a warm regard on my birthday. The nurses at home always made sure to do such things. I am certain if allowed it, Doppo-kun and Hifumi-kun would celebrate with me as well. But I have not allowed that idea to form in either of their heads. They have lives and things to do.

[Jakurai easily follows her pulls, resting his forehead against hers.]

I will call us whatever you want to call us. Most importantly, you are my partner. That is a term I like to think fits us very well.

[He does laugh at her quip about his eating though.]

You will not be the first nor last person to tell me I look like I do not eat a proper amount.

[menphina]

The nurses here will end up doing the same, they adore you. If our prismagram didn't say enough.

[ It's full of "Dr. Jakurai Sightings", sneaked shots of Jakurai just... being himself and offering some good advice. Then again, they post mostly about their handsome men working there, with a sporadic "Dr. Megumi Says..." — not that Megumi discourages it. Have charm, get business, right? And her colleagues— they certainly embody charm.

She smiles in amusement, though his words trouble her... and she leans in and kisses the corner of his mouth, followed by another over his lips herself. ]

Partners, then. Boyfriend when I'm feeling particularly affectionate. And you know— I'm sure your Hifumi and Doppo would happily make time for you. Don't decide what they should be doing for them, aye?

[ It's not fair for him to decide if they should or not. Their love and affection for him is their own! So she smiles and pokes her nose with his, wanting him to feel just as loved by her. ]

We'll start you with a course of cuddles and a main dish of kisses. [ She jokes, though she pauses as her ears flick up. People are cheering in the streets below... she pauses and checks her device for the time, her eyes widening. ]

Hells. It's almost midnight. Were we out here that long?

[ That means the new year is on them... and she sits up properly, extending a hand to him to stand as she urges him to the side of the building rooftop. The celebrations are in full swing, and it's a few minutes to countdown... she smiles a bit. ]

Almost looks like how it is back home, whenever we were in Kugane. Ready to ring in the new year, love?

[zazen]

I have fear that the nurses will begin bringing me home cooked meals if I forget my own lunch one more time. Aah, but this setting...and the setting I am used to are much different. Emergency medicine is never being able to sit down, or sleeping in your call room and getting woken up several times during the night. But this...it is calm and I am able to really focus on each patient.

[He accepts her kisses readily. Happily even.]

I do wish that for Hifumi-kun's sake, that Doppo-kun were here.

[Looking at this own device, he raises a brow. They really had been talking for quite some time.]

I am as ready as I will ever be.

[menphina]

Sounds about as harsh as what I'd be doing on the field during the war... but I'd rather not think about that right now.

[ She really doesn't want to think of the conflicts in the past that she aided as a healer in, those rough nights at the Matron's Reach and worse. That, and... those have memories of her husband, who she also doesn't want to think about.

At least Jakurai is someone she does want to think about... and as he talks, she chuckles. ]

Maybe you'll get your wish, soon enough. It would be nice to meet the people you care so much about.

[ As the countdown begins in cheers from below them, Megumi leans in against him, arm around his back as her ears flick down and up again. 5...4... 3... 2...1. The cheering echoes around them, and bursts of coloured fireworks light up the sky, and she turns to look up at Jakurai. ]

Happy New Year. Make a wish.

[ That's all he'll get before she urges his face down to press their mouths together in a kiss, gentle and full of affection- and with the intimacy of her feelings.

( My wish is for you to accept the love you think you don't deserve. ) She thinks, suddenly feeling like her heart is racing with want for this lovely, sweet man- and that want simply embodies the need to see him content and happy.

As long as she's here, maybe... she can try and help him find it.

It would be nice if he could find a bit of it with her, but she isn't selfish. Not much, anyway, and she hopes he'll let her be if she does decide to. For now, as she breaks the kiss briefly, she purrs slightly against him. ]

Let's do our best together, aye? I'll be happy if we can stand side by side.